After my initial euphoria for gaining a place in the Great North Run - reality is beginning to sink in.
With the sun shining through the window I was motivated to pull on my running gear and go for a run. But despite the sunshine - it was bl**dy cold - barely above freezing in fact - meaning breathing and running felt doubly hard!
After 2 miles of running with what felt like lead weights on my legs, I finally began to warm up. I only managed 4 miles in all, but they were 4 hard miles and I began to wonder to myself - what has possessed me to do the Great North Run again???
I have completed 3 GNR's now so I don't have anything to prove to myself - I KNOW I can do it. And if it was just a case of 'going for a very long run', I could do that any day of the week around the streets where I live. So why...................
I am addicted. There I said it. I am addicted to the feeling you get when you cross the finish line. It really is something else. And despite 99% of the course being hard, uphill slog, the last mile really does make it all worthwhile. It is so emotional - each time I have crossed the finish line, I have done so with tears streaming down my face.
I have 7 months left to train so through the tough times when my legs ache and my chest feels like it is going to explode - I will remind myself that it IS all worthwhile, if only for the last mile!